I have spoken of this before, yet I knew nothing about what it truly was. I used to call this emotion ‘Unknown’ since I had no idea what it was all about.
Have you ever felt like you feel like something, but have no idea what it is? Then you ask yourself what you’re feeling and you are completely oblivious of your emotional state? I’d describe it as if there’s something in my head and I can feel it there, only it’s barricaded by something, and so I cannot see it. It’s strange.
I felt this today, but this time I became aware of something abnormal. I didn’t manage to break through the barricade, but I managed to attain enough knowledge about it to see a single characteristic. Whenever I feel like this, I am emotionless; fact. But when I’m emotionless, I can instill a feeling which I desire.
So when I’m in this state, and suddenly I begin to think of happy things, I instantly become happy. Thinking about things makes you depressed, and the rest. I call this an emotional canvas, because I can embed anything I wish into it – I can manipulate my feelings with this simple technique.
You are what you think you are. Our feelings follow what we are thinking, and that is why people get depressed when bad things happen to them and they begin chastising themselves with thoughts such as: I’m no good, I’m a total failure or Nothing ever goes my way. Negative thoughts like these can send us spiraling down into depression.
So what I must do is bring myself emotionless by ceasing to think about anything, then bring in a chain of thoughts (with a specific emotion) to fill myself up; making me feel what I want to feel.
